How Your Toxic Family Trained You to Fall For Toxic People | Scapegoat Cycle

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[00:00:00]If you're someone who's had a difficult upbringing, you grew up in a toxic family system, you've experienced family scapegoating, and now today as an adult, you seem to have become a magnet um that attracts toxic people and narcissists, well this video is for you.

[00:00:20]And today I'm going to be talking about what is actually going on beneath the surface, why this happened, and how to break this loop once and for all.

[00:00:30]Now I think that most of us have heard the advice, "If it feels familiar, stay away from it." Stop choosing people who treat you the way your family did.

[00:00:39]And it sounds really simple on paper, sure, but to actually execute this in real life, I mean it can really feel absolutely impossible.

[00:00:48]And that's because when a child grows up as a family scapegoat, their formative years are spent in an environment where love is conditional and mistreatment is the norm. Mistreatment is normal, okay?

[00:01:03]And because children naturally equate their early home life with survival familiarity, their nervous system registers that chaotic environment as the baseline for what's normal. So as adults, we may still often unconsciously associate safety with toxicity. And this is really a feeling. This is not a conscious decision.

[00:01:28]You know, to a scapegoat, being attracted to this familiarity is not a conscious preference. It's almost like this is the language that you can understand because this is the language that you were raised in.

[00:01:43]Your body has learned to speak the language of hypervigilance, fixing, tiptoeing, fawning, earning approval, rescuing.

[00:01:52]Uh you learned and adapted to the fact that setting boundaries hurts you.

[00:01:58]You learn that being yourself is dangerous. You learn that love was conditional and based on your performance.

[00:02:07]So, when you meet someone new who speaks that same toxic language, even if they don't show it right away, you will pick up on the vibe. You may feel really, really comfortable around them without consciously really knowing why.

[00:02:23]And this is because your subconscious is doing something very counterintuitive.

[00:02:27]It mistakes that familiar energy from your upbringing for chemistry.

[00:02:32]And thinks, "Oh, I know this. I know what this is. I know how to survive this.

[00:02:38]You know, maybe I can even fix it this time and finally be loved and and heal."

[00:02:44]Now, the golden question here is, "But what if they seem perfect at first? How is your subconscious detecting that, right? If they don't show who they really are in the beginning."

[00:02:54]You may ask, "If I'm drawn to what's familiar, why am I falling for love bombers who seem absolutely perfect? You know, who are adoring and and safe in the beginning.

[00:03:07]They don't look like my toxic family on day one. So, how can I tell, right?

[00:03:12]And this is the most sinister part of the trap.

[00:03:15]Your subconscious mind isn't actually listening to their romantic words or their grand gestures.

[00:03:22]It is tuned into a hidden, invisible frequency. Even when a love bomber is presenting a flawless, loving exterior, your subconscious is recognizing and latching onto three specific things.

[00:03:38]Number one is the pace.

[00:03:40]So, as the family scapegoat, we are used to high adrenaline, high stress, emotional environments.

[00:03:47]And love bombing moves like a hurricane.

[00:03:51]It is fast. it is consuming, it is intense, and it's urgent. And this can really manifest as passion and lust.

[00:04:01]And there's also that electric, magical element, you know, of finally being seen and understood for the first time.

[00:04:09]So, your nervous system will register that high-speed and intense connection.

[00:04:14]And it will say, "Ah, this is familiar.

[00:04:16]This high adrenaline rush feels just like home."

[00:04:22]The second thing is that abusers recognize who is actually starving for affection.

[00:04:28]A love bomber needs someone who is starved for validation, hungry to be chosen, and willing to overlook red flags just to feel loved.

[00:04:37]So, a scapegoat is actually carrying that exact combination. It's a subconscious lock and key, okay? So, when a love bomber says, "You're the only one who really gets me.

[00:04:49]Everyone else is crazy. You're the only one who understands. You're You're the one that I've been waiting for all my life. I can't live without you."

[00:04:58]I mean, a healthy person will will see this as a red flag, especially if if those words are spoken within the first like 2 weeks of a relationship. But, a scapegoat who hears these words spoken, this is a familiar job description, you know? There's a vacancy here for a caretaker and a savior. You know, "You are the only one who can fix me. You're the only one who can make things right in my life." Um and the payout is going to be unconditional love? What? I mean, I'm here, I'm there, right? I'm ready.

[00:05:30]And so, you fall right back into the old pattern of sacrificing everything and destroying yourself in order to fulfill that role once again.

[00:05:42]And the third point is overriding the no instinct.

[00:05:47]If you ask survivors to look back honestly at that blissful love bombing phase, many will admit that they actually did see some subtle red flags here and there, you know, maybe there was a fleeting thought that things were moving a little bit too quickly, or maybe your intuition did have a spark that say no.

[00:06:07]I mean, your body might have known, but because scapegoats are trained in childhood to ignore their intuition and accept gaslighting, we learn to override our own alarm systems. We override our own alarm systems all the time. We silence our gut all the time because we were trained to do this. And because the logical mind wants that fairy tale so badly, so badly. We are in such need to be loved, right? Because we don't belong.

[00:06:39]There's a feeling of never belonging in our own family. So, somebody gives us attention, oh my god, right? And so, when we move beyond the love bombing phase, the mask will eventually slip off, right? You know, the high is going to wear off and the overwhelming attention that you keep getting is going to stop.

[00:06:59]And suddenly, you're going to plunge into this emotional withdrawal, right?

[00:07:04]Cuz you're going to meet the real them.

[00:07:06]Someone who can maybe they're detached or secretive or unpredictable or critical.

[00:07:13]Suddenly, they don't they don't pay attention to you anymore like they used to. Because your nervous system is already hooked on that initial high, you won't take that uh mask drop as a red flag and walk away. Instead, you're going to do anything to get that high back.

[00:07:31]Just like a drug.

[00:07:33]So, immediately your old programming can kick in into high gear. Oh, if I can just figure them out, you know, if I I just be perfect enough. If I If I can just say the right thing at the right time, you know, if I can just do more, if I can do this, if I can do that, you know, I'll get them back for sure. You know, the for sure the spark is going to come back.

[00:07:54]And then the game start, you know, maybe I can make them miss me. Maybe I can please them more. Maybe I can try to look hotter for them.

[00:08:02]So you become completely consumed but what what you can do and you lose yourself entirely in the process because you are fixating on getting them back, you know, on getting the love back, on getting that high back.

[00:08:16]Now think about this mindset for a moment.

[00:08:19]Where did this start really? I mean, is this your childhood story repeating itself over and over and over again? I mean, this is the exact way that we were trained to work for love from our narcissistic parents and their enablers.

[00:08:37]The ones who kept repeating to us that we didn't try hard enough not to get abused. It was our fault we got abused because we didn't try hard enough, okay?

[00:08:47]Or if we tiptoed better, then we could be loved, you know?

[00:08:51]We were taught to blame ourselves for never being good enough uh to be loved by our own families.

[00:09:00]So doing this again feels like the right path because it's a puzzle that you've been trained to try and solve for your entire life.

[00:09:09]And so the conditioning, you know, continues, right? It continues on and on and on and on.

[00:09:17]So when you've been conditioned to believe that your only value lies in what you can fix or endure or sacrifice, your brain completely flips the script on what attraction looks like.

[00:09:31]So this leads to my next point.

[00:09:33]Misinterpreting high anxiety as chemistry.

[00:09:38]Now healthy love to a scapegoat can actually initially feel wrong in every fiber of your body.

[00:09:45]When there is no drama to manage, no puzzle to solve, no one to fix or rescue, no blame to absorb, the scapegoat is left standing face to face with themselves.

[00:09:58]There's like this emptiness there that needs to be filled.

[00:10:01]So, the truth is that in a healthy dynamic, you actually don't have a job to do. You don't. You You don't have to perform, you don't have to earn your keep, you don't have to do anything, you know, in a healthy relationship. You basically have two people who take care of their own needs and who meet in the middle and who enjoy the pleasure of each other's company.

[00:10:23]That's it. It's the end. That's the end.

[00:10:25]That's where it ends, okay? That's where it ends.

[00:10:28]And for someone who has only ever known validation through performance, there's an emptiness there that can feel really really really wrong and uncomfortable.

[00:10:40]The subconscious mind panics and it can tell you, you know, they're not playing the game. You know, why they're not playing the game? What are they thinking? What are they hiding? I don't trust this. They look too healthy for me. Something's wrong, you know, something is wrong, right?

[00:10:54]So, your nervous system can misinterpret this peaceful silence as boredom, as a lack of chemistry, as a sign that the person is weak, which can fill you with disgust even.

[00:11:08]So, you know, or that they're just really not interesting and there's no way that you could find anything um in common. You couldn't find common ground with them, right?

[00:11:19]But the problem isn't actually boredom.

[00:11:22]It's the absence of the fight. It's the absence of chaos. The absence of chaos means that there is a void there that needs to be filled.

[00:11:33]And then there's another obstacle that we need to face and that is pertaining to boundary blindness.

[00:11:40]Scapegoats are often taught that having boundaries is dangerous and selfish, right? We're traitors when we have boundaries, okay? We're freaking traitors, okay?

[00:11:50]So, in a narcissistic family system, a boundary you know, it's an act of war.

[00:11:56]It is viewed as as as disrespect and defiance, okay? So, you developed a distorted relationship with your own limits because of this.

[00:12:06]And when you start interacting with the adult world with this programming, two major things tend to happen. First of all, you will miss red flags completely because you were trained to tolerate the intolerable as a child. And because your threshold for pain is incredibly high and you are so used to minimizing your own discomfort and erasing your own needs, that you can actually overlook toxic behavior in new people.

[00:12:36]When someone is rude, inconsistent, or controlling, your brain doesn't say, "Okay, get out get out. I'm leaving.

[00:12:43]This this this is not good. I got to get out of here." No, your conditioning will say, "Normalize this, absorb it, and adapt."

[00:12:51]Normalize, absorb, adapt.

[00:12:54]So, you tolerate things on day one that a person with healthy boundaries would never and would walk away from immediately.

[00:13:04]Secondly, healthy people will actually sense the lack of boundaries and walk away because of this.

[00:13:11]And this is a piece that clicks everything into place, really.

[00:13:14]Because emotionally healthy people are actually deeply attracted to clear boundaries. And this is true. This is correct. Boundaries signal safety, self-respect, and predictability.

[00:13:29]Boundaries are what define you as a person.

[00:13:33]I like this. I don't like that. This is my routine. This is what I'm into. This is what I don't accept. Um this is what I can do. This is what I can't do.

[00:13:44]So, when a healthy person encounters someone who doesn't do this, who over compromises, who shapeshifts, who completely changes themselves to fit in, it sets off an alarm system for them.

[00:13:58]They don't see it as niceness. They recognize it as a lack of solid sense of self.

[00:14:03]And they realize the dynamic is unbalanced, and they are being put in a position where they either need to fix you or or or rescue you, or or take advantage of you, you know, or maybe even think to themselves, "This person is not really telling me who they are, right? So, I better be careful with them."

[00:14:24]Because they don't want this role. They don't want to be playing the role of the rescuer or fixer. They just want to have a healthy relationship with another person.

[00:14:32]And because there is no way of getting to know the real you, they may back away.

[00:14:38]And who does that leave? Well, this boundary blindness shuts out healthy people, leaving the door wide open primarily to predators and narcissists and and users who will exploit that exact lack of boundary. They see your willingness to erase yourself as an open invitation.

[00:15:01]So, the deepest layer of the scapegoat wound is this internalized belief of our unworthiness.

[00:15:10]It's that if my own family didn't value me, then who will?

[00:15:15]When a healthy, respectful person enters your life and offers genuine affection, it may not necessarily feel good at all.

[00:15:25]It can actually trigger intense vulnerability or even fear because of that underlying core belief.

[00:15:33]Your subconscious may think, "Oh, if they really knew me, they'd leave.

[00:15:38]They'd come They'd leave, okay?" And And this shame leads you to unconsciously push the healthy person away or self-sabotage the connection before anything goes wrong.

[00:15:50]So, how do you break this cycle? Really, there's three steps that you can start um taking right now.

[00:15:57]Spend time alone constructively. Okay?

[00:16:01]Build your foundation.

[00:16:03]So, in order to get to that place where you feel the safety and you feel good in your body, you need to know yourself first. You need to spend some time alone. You need to build your foundation.

[00:16:14]You know, develop a rich inner world.

[00:16:17]What are your hobbies? What are your routines? You know, what do you do to take care of your body and your mind and soul? What does your spirituality look like? You know, take this time to focus on your personal development, your goals, and your path forward.

[00:16:32]What are your values?

[00:16:34]Understanding your values creates a actually really a clean road map uh where you can automatically detect who who will and won't be compatible with you almost instantly.

[00:16:46]Now, step two is practice being the observer, okay?

[00:16:50]Learn to observe. And the thing is when you meet someone who's consistent and clear and emotionally available, even if your conditioning tells you that this person is boring and that there's no chemistry, I invite you to actually recognize that that this isn't a lack of compa- com- compatibility.

[00:17:10]It's actually the absence of a trigger.

[00:17:13]There is no trigger.

[00:17:15]So, challenge yourself to continue having interactions with the people that cross your path who you would actually never imagine having anything in common with, you know? Get curious about who is completely unfamiliar to you.

[00:17:30]And do this slowly. Not There's no rush, okay? This is really very slow process. And don't dive into anything. Just let it play out and watch, you know? And consciously watch yourself. If you start judging them before even getting to know them or if you find yourself trying to figure them out or fix their problems or earn their approval, well, this is where you remind yourself, "Okay, I don't have a job to do here. I don't have a job to do here."

[00:18:00]So, practice leaning into the discomfort of a slow, quiet, predictable predictable, and even boring connection.

[00:18:09]And this process may actually really force you to start asking yourself, you know, "Who are you when you're not saving someone, you know? Who are you when there is no chaos in your life?"

[00:18:22]Now, remember that saving isn't an appropriate mindset for healthy relationships, okay? If you have a deep drive to save, you don't have to kill it but use it constructively. You can volunteer at an animal shelter, you know, which I did for a long time. Start making content for survivors, which I also did, you know? Look for opportunities where you can work with the less fortunate in a structured way.

[00:18:49]Don't just bring these dynamics into your personal relationships, but use them constructively, okay? And you can be there for someone and offer your listening presence, but you don't need to get involved to the point where you feel a need to, you know, forcefully steer them in a direction that you envision is going to save them or is right for them, you know?

[00:19:11]Um because at the end of the day you are not them and sometimes people need to make their own mistakes until they figure things out for themselves and it's really not your mandate to prevent them from making mistakes. Sometimes you have to let things be and just be there as a good listener, you know, what's also really important is the practice of saying no, you know, so you you you practice saying no or expressing a different opinion in low stake situations. If someone suggests a restaurant or a movie you don't like, you know, you can practice speaking up, you know, instead of automatically erasing your preference and being easy going with everything or just trying to keep everybody happy.

[00:19:55]It was a friend asked me to go to a place with her that I wasn't interested in going. I didn't want to go to that place.

[00:20:03]I didn't care about that event. I wanted to stay home and just watch a movie and so I had to make a phone call and say no and it took so much mental preparation but that was how I began practicing saying no, you know, it took so much mental preparation and I even made some notes for myself and I was reading, okay, I actually, you know, I'm going to spend the evening at home watching a movie tonight, all right, you know, and then we hung up the phone and she wasn't mad at me.

[00:20:33]But when we hung up the phone, I mean, I felt like it was guilt and I was ruminating.

[00:20:39]It was like really when I think back about it now, it was such a small thing and it was a bit ridiculous on my part but this is really, you know, I was trained to completely, I was unable to I couldn't disappoint people. That's what it was. I was absolutely terrified of disappointing people.

[00:20:56]So, I mean, it's really important to practice it though even though the fear is there. You got to push past the fear and you start small.

[00:21:05]Attracting healthy people isn't about changing who we are. It's about recalibrating your nervous system so that peace begins to feel safer than conflict and respect feels more attractive than the struggle to be chosen.

[00:21:22]When you normalize peace in your life and somebody healthy enters enters your life, right?

[00:21:30]You're not going to freak out as much.

[00:21:32]It's not going to be that oh my god, there's so much about me that you don't know and they're going to find me out and I got to tell them everything about me and I got to tell them about the dysfunction. I got to tell them everything so that they know how horrible I actually am or how defective and broken I am, you know?

[00:21:47]When you actually teach yourself to feel peace, that mindset it really does stop. You know, you don't feel the need to do that, to explain your existence, you know, explain yourself anymore.

[00:22:04]So, the next time that you find yourself caught in this frantic energy of trying to earn someone's love, trying to earn someone's approval, trying to earn somebody's validation, well, take this as a sign.

[00:22:20]Take a deep breath, stop what you're doing and repeat, I love myself, I trust myself. I am worth more than this.

[00:22:29]And let that really sink into your body.

[00:22:32]You're allowed to be loved for who you are, not for what you can endure and not for your performance, okay? So, I hope this helped you. I'm Art the Scapegoat Coach and I'm going to see you guys soon.