a day in my fun and silly life as a 24 yr old doing what i want

[00:00:00]Hey, whoever's watching this video, it's Meghan Sophie. And I have been away from YouTube for 7 months. I'm so sorry. I forgot to film an intro for this vlog because I keep just picking up my camera and vlogging because I miss it, but then I don't actually make a coherent vlog.

[00:00:15]But this time I actually filmed a whole day and a night, so you get to see me and what I get up to in a normal day, kind of like fun employed activities. I think this was a Wednesday. I ended up having a great night with my girls.

[00:00:28]Anyway, yeah, I feel like >> [gasps] >> I've honestly just been mentally kind of unwell, but I feel like that's something I've dealt with since I was a teenager, but I really just did not feel like picking up my camera and vlogging when I'm feeling [ __ ] about myself and [ __ ] about my life, and it's not like I'm doing anything wrong or there's really anything wrong in my life. It's just my brain, and I'm taking my meds consistently. I've been trying to look after myself, leave the house, get ready, just like simple things that a normal mentally healthy person does because it takes me a lot more effort to do those things than it does a normal person. I fear I feel like I always wanted to come back when I'm feeling like so myself and so ready and like a totally different person, and that's just never going to be because I'm always going to be changing and growing and learning and evolving and figuring things out. So, let's just keep showing you my real life, and I'll keep talking through and being honest with you as I always do. Today is a good mental health day, but sometimes there's bad ones, and it's just can't let myself get too down because I have to keep persevering. The show must go on. Life is good. Life is beautiful.

[00:01:45]There's way more out there for me and the world than what my life is now, and my life is beautiful now, but there's still more love to experience. There's still more things I can achieve. I know I'm a great, beautiful person and I deserve to put in the work on myself to be able to achieve those things and to live my dream life and to be happy. So, I guess I'm just going to let you watch the vlog because I don't even know. I don't even know, but if you want to see some more videos, I also am going to start live streaming on Twitch. My Twitch is just Sofie Aqua. If you want to go subscribe, please. I mean, follow me. I don't even really know how it works, but if you want to comment some ideas on what you want to see on Twitch, I'm also considering coming back to another platform that a lot of you guys love and you still comment about that I did years ago and quit. If you know what I'm talking about, you know. I am considering it. So, that might be coming soon. I don't know. I don't want to make any promises. It's just been something I've been thinking about. Anyway, I love you. Subscribe and I need to be more consistent because I have to be more consistent for myself so I don't feel like a loser and a failure.

[00:02:54]Sometimes you have to do the hard things to achieve your goals and your dreams.

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[00:03:04]Hey. Hey. I finished drying my hair. As you can see, it looks good. I need to get a hair cut because my bangs have grown out and now they're like past past my chin and I don't really know how to style them or if I should have them like back here. I wanted to try out a hair product with you, the Olaplex bonding oil. My mommy got me this as a little present and I've never really used Olaplex. I know it's bad, but I've always only really used like Herbal Essences shampoo on my hair.

[00:03:39]Like as a kid, I would just go into the section in the grocery store and just smell the shampoos and then like whichever one I liked them scent of the most is what I get. And that's still me now. Like I'm literally using Herbal Essences. But like my hair is fine, but I would like to like kind of get into hair care and learn more about it because I guess I never really got into it cuz I never bleached my hair. Well, I have like this part bleached, but I never like bleached my whole head, and so it was never really damaged from a lot of bleach, and I don't really use that much heat. I mean, I do blow dry and straighten. Actually, I use heat two to three times a week on it. So, maybe that's why it's like all good and fine, but I would like to see like how much better it can get if I start using products, you know? I do get a little scared of hair oil because it always makes my hair too oily, I feel. Wait.

[00:04:28]I'm like scared to put this through.

[00:04:31]I'm touching it so lightly. It smells super nice.

[00:04:36]Oh my god, I'm about to fall off my [ __ ] chair.

[00:04:39]I hate that you can't play like music during YouTube cuz it'll get copyrighted because I wish you could just listen to like what I'm listening to when I'm vibing, you know? I used to never listen to music. Now, I always have music on.

[00:04:52]Like, I used to just kind of Okay, guys, can you tell the difference? I don't know. Okay, well, it smells It smells really good. Also, this perfume, vanilla nectar, smells amazing. And this [ __ ] I use this all the time, Mario Badescu.

[00:05:11]It's a bit niche because it's such an old like popular product, but I swear it keeps my skin so glowy.

[00:05:18]Um I was going to do a face mask, but I also wanted to put makeup on, but I kind of want to do a face mask first. I don't know why. I honestly love the Garnier face masks, and also the Loop. This one's like a nicer texture, but they're more expensive. These sometimes are like half off at Woolworths, and they're actually a really good face mask. Um I I do face masks like at least once a week.

[00:05:43]Um I think I might do the tired skin one though because I am feeling tired, but also first I wanted to pluck my eyebrows. I know you might not be able to tell that I need plucking, but I just feel like I do. My camera man is sore.

[00:05:57]My neck is [ __ ] sore. Anyway, what was I doing? Oh, I almost spilled this on myself. I'm going to put this on.

[00:06:05]La la la la la. Anyway, I love Wednesday because it's really become like my self-care cleaning day. Last Wednesday, I literally cleaned deep cleaned the whole entire house. I cleaned out my closet. I cleaned the balcony. I was on my hands and knees scrubbing the balcony floor with soap and water. I was picking up worms. I was gardening. If you guys have any tips about gardening, please let me know because I don't really know what I'm doing.

[00:06:33]Oh, that's going to be nice and soothing for my Oh, don't want to get in my hair.

[00:06:37]All right, eyebrows. Yeah, so if anyone has gardening tips, I have like I'll show you in a second actually. I have a bunch of room and soil for flowers and there used to be flowers there a couple years ago or like last year, but then they have stopped blooming and then there's just weeds and I don't really know what to do because I've never gardened in my life. Not the kind of soil. Cleaned all the leaves off the floor. So good. Got these new slippers.

[00:07:04]Kind of grandpa-y, but I kind of like them. I have all of this room.

[00:07:12]I have all of this room and all of this room and I don't know what to do. I have no idea.

[00:07:21]La la la la la la la.

[00:07:26]I always think like when I feel bad about not doing too much in a day if I'm just like chilling, relaxing.

[00:07:32]Um, I think about one day I might have kids, probably going to have kids and I just won't be able to like vibe by myself, you know? Enjoy your youth while you can, guys.

[00:07:43]Okay, guys. I've done my makeup and I want another coffee. So, there's just like not one on the way of the walk that I want to go to.

[00:07:55]Or maybe I should go to a different gardens.

[00:07:59]This is my makeup and it took me like 15 minutes.

[00:08:07]When I put makeup on I'm more motivated to leave the house. Okay. Oh.

[00:08:12]Okay, guys. Okay, guys.

[00:08:15]I finished my walk. I was gone for a little over an hour and it was really nice. I haven't walked around that park in so long. I don't know what I've been doing.

[00:08:24]Been busy. Anyway, the swing set that I normally go on was taken up by a family and they were on it and then I sat and like waited further away. I wasn't looking like I was stalking them. And they got off and then like the mom had a baby and like they were all still sitting around there and I just didn't want to like be on the swing with my headphones blasting. You know, I didn't want to make them feel unsafe, but in hindsight if I was in a different mood today, I normally probably would have.

[00:08:50]But I'm in my video phase and I'm kind of just feeling like shy.

[00:08:55]>> [snorts] >> Not really. I also like did not make eye contact with anyone. Sometimes I smile at every one of my walks and today I literally didn't lock eyes with anyone and if I was honest, every man that walked past me, I was just imagining like how I would disarm him or like take him to the ground, you know?

[00:09:14]Like I don't know why. I think I read way too many [ __ ] fantasy books. Um but it was really keeping me entertained on my walk and it's a good self-defense practice, girls. Every time a man walks past you, think if he were to come up and approach you right now and try and grab you, attack you, whatever, how would you handle it? How would you get him? And it's really fun. I don't I don't tell them my tricks, but think about it, girls. Just think about it. And if you see like a guy that's bigger, like how would you get him? If you see a skinnier guy, like what would be the easiest way?

[00:09:43]Like what would be the easiest way for you to get out of that situation if you know there's no one around to help you and he's like got you. Anyway, that's what I was thinking about. Something's [ __ ] up in here. Um great though, I think we should all learn self-defense. As I was on my walk, it's just so sunny and I was like, "Oh my god, you know what would be so amazing? A nice crisp glass of Pinot Grigio." All my girls are busy or sick, and so no one can drink with me tonight, but I decided that since it's such a nice night, I'll just take myself on a date. So, I'm going to get changed, get ready, like freshen up, and go walk down, get a bottle of white wine. I'll get fish bowl for dinner, I think. Tofu rice bowl dinner. And then I'll bring my book that I've been wanting to finish, and a cup, a glass of my wine, and then a sheet, and I'll sit in the park and read and drink my wine and eat dinner.

[00:10:34]What time is it? Almost 4:00 now, so I'll try and leave within like the next 20 minutes. 4:20. [laughter] Um yeah, but I just think that would be a really nice night. And you don't have to do things with people. You can just do things yourself. I might even get myself a bouquet of flowers if the flower shop is open. I don't know if they'll still be open. It would really just look like I'm on a date and like waiting for someone to show up. Ready to go hang out with myself.

[00:10:58]Um I'm just starting this long-sleeve.

[00:11:00]It's really comfy. It's from Cotton On, and I literally I have it on backwards, but I guess you can kind of tell. I kind of want to wear my slippers.

[00:11:09]I'm wearing this belt I think is my friend's. I don't even know. I'm wearing a sheet. I'm bringing you guys finally out of the house together, am I right? I've arrived at the park.

[00:11:21]I have a glass of Pinot Grigio, and I got swindled into buying a second bottle of wine cuz it was $12, and I was like, well, what if someone did actually want to come join me and then I ran out of wine and like that would suck. So, I bought it another bottle of red wine because cuz if it gets colder later, well, I don't want to drink white wine if it just gets warm in my bag, you know what I mean?

[00:11:48]Who knows how much wine I'll drink? I don't really have anything to do tomorrow, but I'm working at night, like I'm working at like 9:00 p.m. So, I can just chill.

[00:11:58]I love drinks, obviously. Anyway, I'm kind of like not doing anything. I'm not even seeing the music. I'm just watching. I'm watching this magpie right now. And I didn't get fishbowl. Well, it just turned 5:00 p.m. and I'm not really that hungry yet. My eyes are kind of itchy. It's kind of polliny out here. I might just like, I don't know, sit and have thoughts. I did bring my journal.

[00:12:20]This cup says Maui on it. I love you, Maui. I didn't bring any water or snacks. Just two bottles of wine. Like, what's wrong with me? I was like, I'm like I was going to get flowers, but I went in the flower shop and they didn't really have many left. Guys, okay, so why am I going to drunk? I've literally not even had this glass of wine. Um basically, I posted on my Instagram. If you want to follow me, it's um wow, I look really pretty with these leaves behind me. Um it's so the aqua with two A's at the end of aqua. Anyway, my girl my friends texted me and well, she called me and she was like, call me back right now cuz I posted on my story like, love my life, drinking alone in the park.

[00:12:59]And she was like, girl, get over here right now. And one of our other friends is coming over as well. And so, we're going to do our Wednesday girls game's night.

[00:13:08]But, both of them are like kind of sick and I was also sick yesterday. So, I was like, I thought we were all just like chilling. But, I guess the girls want to get together and I am a fool to think I wouldn't want to go get together with my girls. It's my favorite thing ever. What a great day. Turned into a great night.

[00:13:23]Anyway, I was writing stuff down in my book because I think a bird was speaking to me, so I was just writing down what he was saying.

[00:13:30]Oh, what she was saying. Um, >> [laughter] >> say it again. And anyway.

[00:13:36]I'm not Whoa, leaves keep falling. Love it. I'm going to pack up and walk home and then Uber to my friend's house. And I already have two bottles of wine, so Perfect. I'm bringing my Oops, I'm bringing vibes.

[00:13:49]So, she called me at the perfect time because I was reading and I'm loving this part where I'm up to in my book, Powerless. I'm literally almost finished. I don't know. I have like a quarter of the way left to go. Then I had to pee and there's like no toilet around here and I have like all my stuff. And then I was getting cold and I didn't bring a jacket cuz I didn't want to feel like carrying it. So, it was perfect she called me. Anyway, divine timing. Peace out, park. I stayed here for probably like 40 five [laughter] minutes.

[00:14:17]>> [gasps and sighs] >> I love my girlfriends. I'm in love with them. Girls' night. Girls, do you want to be in my vlog?

[00:14:23]>> [laughter] >> I'm just a little high.

[00:14:26]>> No, not what I look like this.

[00:14:27]>> Okay. Just your hands. Is that okay?

[00:14:30]>> Why you holding it?

[00:14:31]>> Just to show them that you're here.

[00:14:34]We're at >> Is it canceled or what's happening?

[00:14:37]>> the Josie and the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show. Claude is the only boy here tonight and he's being so sweet.

[00:14:44]He's being such an angel. So, we're basically just a few gays. I mean, a lot of gays around. And we're drinking some wine. Oh.

[00:14:55]Oh, she took my wine. It's okay. And I have another one cuz it's girls' night.

[00:14:59]And we're just watching music videos on the TV just like gays.

[00:15:03]We're waiting for Sophie to get here so we can play a game. Cards Against Humanity cuz I've never played it.

[00:15:08]Humanity cuz I've never played it.

[00:15:11]>> I feel like Sophie would be perfect for that because she's freaking hilarious.

[00:15:14]>> Okay.

[00:15:15]>> She's a funny one.

[00:15:16]>> Funny girl, that one.

[00:15:17]>> Let me get some raspberries.

[00:15:20]>> And my favorite thing is that you to blush. I'm like, yes, I bring that with me. Yeah.

[00:15:26]He's so perfect.

[00:15:28]Can I say hi to the camera?

[00:15:31]He is such a little supermodel. He loves I said he looks like Serafina from the Barbie and like the Diamond Castle movie.

[00:15:38]He is the softest cat I've ever felt.

[00:15:40]Also, he's deaf.

[00:15:43]We're about to play >> [laughter] >> Because Alissa said she's a bad explainer and I said, "Give me a moment.

[00:15:54]I need my lip gloss and I need my wine and I need everything." And then she can explain. But then I got distracted and I wanted to vlog and tell them what we were doing.

[00:16:03]Was it worth it?

[00:16:06]Look at the face. Was the lip gloss worth it?

[00:16:09]Hey Sophie, also just arrived. Sophie, say hi.

[00:16:13]Hi hey bug.

[00:16:17]We're going to play this game.

[00:16:20]I need my wine.

[00:16:23]Here it comes.

[00:16:24]Maya is ready. Let's see if Maya Okay, okay, wait. What? If you guys Hey. If you guys know who Clavicula is, I think we'd get along really well. I think we'd be really good friends and Clavicula sounds like one of those dentist tools they use when they're like taking your wisdom teeth out or something. Like, "Ooh, pass me the Clavicula."

[00:16:48]He's like one of those manscaped looks maxing guys. But to We have definitely seen him ON INSTAGRAM REELS.

[00:16:56]STRAWBERRY BLONDE HAIR I DON'T THINK IT'S TOO BAD. I DON'T THINK it's too bad looking.

[00:17:01]Well, yeah, that's fine, but I just think he needs a genuine friend to see his soul and I can be that for him.

[00:17:07]Clavicula I can show him a whole new world and show him the true meaning of life and then he'll be I could heal Oh my god, I was Clavicula headed down.

[00:17:15]We love you. We see your light. We see your shine. We see your glow.

[00:17:19]Seriously?

[00:17:20]That's play. Is it play? It's on. Hi.

[00:17:24]Sophie's going to do a performance for Claude. She wants to serenade him. He is a grumpy boy, but he's finally decided >> [music] >> to come and cuddle. So And she was very upset.

[00:17:51]Bye.

[00:18:06]Huh?

[00:18:08]How do I Hey, happy lesbian family. Lesbian. I'm going to garden.

[00:18:21]Buzzing. I'm going to garden. Well, are we even watching? I don't even know.

[00:18:25]Move, I'm gay.

[00:18:26]Hey guys.

[00:18:28]Yes.

[00:18:29]I was telling everyone about my 1 million dream.

[00:18:34]I was telling EVERYONE ABOUT MY 1 million dream. So I can have my gold back NEXT YEAR. 1 MILLION SUBSCRIBERS.

[00:18:42]Let me know if you want to do that.

[00:18:45]Thanks, guys.

[00:18:47]Let me Hey guys. Please. 1 million. Can you put him on my lap, please? And can you see if he calls out to me? Yes. No, I think he likes it.

[00:19:00]Let you pet him.

[00:19:03]Okay. He's always got You've got a few fleeting seconds.

[00:19:08]You got to tame the beast.

[00:19:18]>> [laughter] >> He's like, "No."

[00:19:25]Look at him.

[00:19:33]>> What is that?