Beautifying 4 Cali—hair dye, make up, nails, gabapentin?

[00:00:00]What's up, people? What's up, celebrities?

[00:00:03]>> Hi.

[00:00:04]>> We're so back. We're so medicated and ready to fuck it up. Um, I had to go to New Haven to a whole ass other pharmacy today to get my gabapentin, but I'm just glad that's over with. And I'm going to be extra careful about making sure all my medications, everything is just lined up, ready to rock for the California trip. No issues. Thank god this didn't happen on the trip. All right, let's stay in gratitude. Thank god I didn't have a like prescription mess horrible withdrawal situation while out of state. So, got Cynthia's out in the ball. Let me just grab her. Hey, what's up? Hi, Fumble King. EFT306 for life.

[00:00:48]Um, but yeah, I thought I would take you guys for a little trip to pick up hair dye, maybe get my nails done. Oh, thank you, Jay. I guess the trip is coming up so soon. I feel like I don't know. I I think I like burnt myself out with like just moving and working and streaming and I've been crashing out and fucking up all over the place. Not in any hugely serious way, but like there's another alarm being like, "Bitch, wake up. I'm awake, bitch. I'm awake, bitch."

[00:01:17]Hey, the trip is the 25th to the 29th.

[00:01:21]Um, but yeah, I like started smoking weed, forget everything, fucking everything up. Then there was this whole like prescription disaster, which is like a monthly occurrence with at least like three out of five of my prescriptions. But we got that big bottle. It's full of fucking pills. And when I do not feel good, it makes me want to kill the anxiety and kill the pain. Only in this fucking shit for the fucking game, bitch. The love of the game, bitch. Not just a game, bitch.

[00:01:52]Thank you, Stevie.

[00:01:54]I think that warrants Cynthia Cam. This is Cinnamon's ball, but she's active enough for it.

[00:02:03]You're strong and you're so white. So cool how she changed colors. Oh, thank you for the memberships, humanology.

[00:02:10]Here comes getting close. I know. So, we're going to try to lock down a stream with me, Kell, and Dish. Um, all our schedules have been difficult to lock that down. Mostly me. I feel like I've been like the the one dropping the ball in a lot of ways. Just uh fading in and out of functioning in reality. But we're making it happen, people. We're going to dye the hair. They see me rolling.

[00:02:36]They hating trying to catch me dirty. Trying to catch me riding dirty.

[00:02:46]Maybe she does need a smaller one. She she's a very very active, curious little guy. So, also I got um got little kitchen table set up over here. So, um shout out to my mom for assembling that because I'm not good at assembling things.

[00:03:07]Um so, she's been very helpful in that regard in many regards.

[00:03:12]Um is Ginger Ruby making come back, bro.

[00:03:14]Gosh, you never left, bro.

[00:03:17]Also, does I put lipstick under my eyes, people, just so you know, I do that.

[00:03:21]It's K-pop. It's whatever. Um, sometimes I wonder if it's getting more sick than like sick. Like, you see me rolling. All right, I need all my makeup is broken, so we're going to go for a little quest.

[00:03:40]All right. and uh get my nails done.

[00:03:44]It's all chipped and stuff right now.

[00:03:48]I just did my nails at home last time, but it's a special occasion, you know.

[00:03:54]So, I think there's a nail place near the place that I'm going to get hair dye, but my phone's only on 35%.

[00:04:03]I can't even keep the phone charged, people. I can't do anything. Like, I don't know what the issue is, but you should get Eric Palmer to come renovate again with no thank you. I don't want a bunch of weird uh cameras installed in my shitter. Okay. When you come to that motherfucker, you could say I'm a quitter.

[00:04:30]I brought him the mouse and he fucking bitter. Uh yeah, you're a bitch. You're a slow fucking hitter. What? Oh, Cynthia. She's in the ball. She's out always happy. Let's go to the fucking mall. We're going to get our nails done cuz we are still young and we're about to go to Kelly and have some fun. Yeah.

[00:04:53]Do you think someone is trying to spy on you? No. Uh, that's just a reference to OPC Don someone. No. No. I considered letting him fix my sink at my last place like a long time ago, which my landlord did and ended up doing. For me, a lot of times it's just I get I just lose track of things and procrastinate to the point of like absolute absurdity and I struggle I just struggle to keep up with things. And I've been diagnosed with like several mental illnesses, but I don't know what that even fucking means.

[00:05:25]I don't know what that means.

[00:05:28]ADHD. Well, I'm not taking Adderall. got to tweak the fuck out on that. Bipolar.

[00:05:32]I don't want to get fat on cerakal again. No, thank you.

[00:05:36]Um, but what I do want is I just I don't know. I feel bad when I let people down or like I don't I don't know carry my weight or when cuz I don't want people to think I'm like avoiding them when I become hard to reach because it's never that. It's more just like I get utterly anxious and overwhelmed and running out of medication made that a lot worse. So, I got bad vibes from him. See? Yeah. So did my friend. That's why she ended up like researching all the things cuz she was so freaked out by me potentially collaborating with him, which is reasonable, honestly.

[00:06:13]Disorganization.

[00:06:15]That's the name of the game.

[00:06:17]>> Yeah. Yes. I struggle with organizing and keeping up with things and yeah, personhood really when it comes down to it. And I don't know why or what.

[00:06:28]sucks, but we're trying.

[00:06:32]I just feel like me trying my best is a lot like someone else trying their worst and I'm like, am I trying my best?

[00:06:39]Am I like am I doing my is this my best right now? Is like just non-functioning?

[00:06:44]Like, but this happens to me periodically. So, um I don't know. I think it's just been a lot with like moving and setting things up. a lot of big changes, you know, changes in how I get to work and back. And I'm a little autistic. I get my routine, you know, a lot of changes.

[00:07:03]I think I had a little autistic burnout meltdown moment that culminated with the prescription fiasco. But we are Yeah, that's what my friend said when she found his info gamer. And she's like, he still messages me and is like, I'm going to sue. I was like, okay.

[00:07:19]Like, I don't think my friend would make that up. Like, and plus you used an alias online. No one said anything else. Like, you're known for being a shit obsessed creepy s, you know, we like skinny spit out or whatever. We ran him out of Canada for being weirdo. I The thing is I don't mind like weird. Like, I love weird people, but I don't know. OPC, he's sneaky and he's weird and he has violent fantasies.

[00:07:48]Uh, he's deranged. And the fact that he's like, I don't know, Ben's like secondary slave person is like, bro, what are you doing with your life? This isn't Christian charity. This is something else, my brother. This is called sing gone wrong. It's called waiting for the old man to kill over so she can kill on into that booze.

[00:08:10]Put jacket away and she's off with us. I will say, okay, it's not that bad. Okay. Yeah. Oh, it's looking Oh, yeah. She likes the couch.

[00:08:18]Whatever.

[00:08:20]Wow, so messy.

[00:08:24]That's it. It's It's not as bad as, you know, as I've been, but yeah, it's a lot of different It's just been a a jump start on a new different lifestyle. And I've been burning out and crashing out and saying yes to commitments, then fucking them up and then going missing for days in a haze of marijuana and anxiety.

[00:08:46]So, that's what's been up, people.

[00:08:49]But I I feel bad. I don't want to I just don't like letting people down. But we are upward and onward. Upward and onward. I know it seems small to you, but I couldn't handle that level of mess. Yeah. Well, yeah, it's all relative and like even you know little steps. So yesterday, even though I was in the throws of withdrawal and normally I struggle to do chores and whatnot on a great day on a great day. I don't mind doing like at my job I'll clean all day and night, but when it's my own shit, it becomes like a whole fucking psychological nightmare, you know, where it I don't know how to explain it.

[00:09:28]Um, but I did overcome myself yesterday and I took out my recycling while in a state of pain.

[00:09:39]Decentralize if it's how you start. If you start with the same habits, you'll continue them. Yeah. And I I've been instilling better habits. That's why it's like not as messy as I would think it is. But like, you know, I've been doing dishes. The dishes haven't piled up. Uh, I've been making more food at the house. I need to go grocery shopping again, though.

[00:09:59]We're making moves, people. Lots of furniture getting set up. Things still being put away.

[00:10:05]There's animals running around.

[00:10:10]Cynthia, it feels like work to you. It makes sense.

[00:10:16]Like I I it's very psychological. I don't mind cleaning other people's houses or like doing what I need to do at work, like but when it comes to things that I feel like only impact me, like, oh, it's messy, but you know, that's just a me thing. Like, whatever.

[00:10:29]It just gets crazy. Then I get more anxiety about it and then next thing you know, it's Ruby Land. But we're not I'm not going to let it get that bad here.

[00:10:37]And still smoking outside. There's been a lot of big changes, people. Okay.

[00:10:42]Um, but I feel bad for missing the podcast again. I couldn't have foreseen that medication fiasco happening. But, uh, so that's like the third the third fuck up on one podcast in like one month. So, she's hard to work with. I guess I just reach a point of insanity where I can't interact anymore. I reach a point where I can't interact anymore without it being like the craziest shit ever.

[00:11:16]And then I don't want to accidentally be rude or mean to someone or cry or whatever or break it down over something that doesn't make sense then try to explain why it makes sense even though it doesn't make sense. Like she's an artist.

[00:11:32]I know. I It's And at least this time like the the other time I missed it, I slept through. So I felt bad I didn't even get to tell them. This time I messaged him like right when I found out at Walgreens that they fucked my prescription and they continued fucking it well into today. That's what I was doing earlier in the day. It was Ubering around to fucking New Haven cuz I called my new pharmacy.

[00:11:55]My new pharmacy.

[00:11:57]And they were like, "Huh? Oh, actually we're not filling it till July now." And I was like, "What?" And they're like, "Yeah, it turns out you picked out a three-mon supply at the other." And I was like, "What are you talking about?

[00:12:09]It's a a 90 quantity. I take three a day, motherfuckers.

[00:12:15]These people just say anything." And then eventually I just went back to my old fucking pharmacy and got the refill.

[00:12:22]Holy shit. Like, oh, thank you, Stevie. YouTube recently enacted Tik Tok style gift emojis that I think you can count as sending money.

[00:12:33]tried to send you one, but I don't think you have been able to hope YouTube does.

[00:12:37]Okay. I think I started trying to set something up like that recently and did not finish it because I was like, I don't know what this is, but I remember seeing that there is like a new Yeah, it's more like Tik Tok with the settings. All right, let's focus people.

[00:12:54]I completed my anger management. Yeah.

[00:12:58]And I have like a a counselor and a psychiatrist and a doctor. Feel like I see so many medical professionals. It's just like I don't know. I just I just wish I could do all the things I want to do and not let people down or be disappointing or be low functioning.

[00:13:20]And I just hate it when this thing happens and it's happened forward. Like it's like imagine like you're starting a new job and you get sick like on the day of the job and then like the next day of the job you sleep through your alarm.

[00:13:32]Like I feel like these things even though I have every intention in my mind and body to like want to not fuck up.

[00:13:40]Whatever. I'm like overthinking. I'm like oh no missed a podcast. missed the podcast and like some phone calls and we're gonna make it all up now. Right, Cynthia?

[00:13:55]My little white fluffy blob.

[00:14:01]Look at her. She's such a little like snow bunny. Hi.

[00:14:06]You're so cute.

[00:14:14]When will you be uploading the footage from the pharmacy and from your euphoria?

[00:14:21]I d that's the other thing is like I have thousands and thousands and thousands of videos and screen recordings and screenshots and emails and ah like so finding a video from years ago is I'll post it if I find it. But hey Lola, how's it going? You're a great leader. I don't know about that necessarily, but um I mean if all the all the stars are aligned, I did get the Trailblazer award when I went to Mountain Inside for rehab. So they were like, "You should come work here." And I was like, "Yeah, let me just go relapse first and then I'll hit you up, right? Say bye-bye. I got to go get beautified for California." Okay. We have like young, sexy, rich, and like we're kind of a beige.

[00:15:20]All right.

[00:15:23]Okay. Run free, little one. To do the hamster cages as well. Now we're playing catchup, people. We're playing catchup.

[00:15:31]We're catching up. We fell behind. We're catching up.

[00:15:36]We fell behind. We're catching up.

[00:15:41]Did you see the aeronaut?

[00:15:43]Yeah, someone sent me a clip of that.

[00:15:44]It's pretty bizarre, but um I did see that she was working on her GED, so that's great. That's a I would encourage that. You know, it's actually I didn't study for my test either and did all right. I just barely passed math, though. Um but school's always a good option. I found my immunization record, so I'm planning on starting like classes, I don't know, maybe for September. But I would just do like whoa, like just dipping my toe back into, you know, the water of uh education because it's been a few years.

[00:16:18]I just started reading Hunger Games, loving it. Oh, nice. Very cool. I've never read the book. I've just seen the movies.

[00:16:25]Screams of obsession. Well, that's been a that's been a vibe for a while over there. But I don't get it cuz it's like you could a log and put this much energy towards someone who actually has emotion and clout and it would probably advance their channel more than just obsessing over me because I got a condo. Like it's all right, dude.

[00:16:47]But God bless him. I think the GD is a great idea. So all right, hamsters away.

[00:16:55]We're on 31%. So, I need to get another like portable charger for sure.

[00:17:05]>> I say no to weed.

[00:17:10]Oh my goodness.

[00:17:14]Where the fuckes?

[00:17:23]Hunger Games. What is that about? It's a what's her face? The famous actress Jennifer Lawrence was in the movie. It was a big movie like probably 10 years ago or something.

[00:17:34]Um, but it's like a dystopian kind of like sci-fi vibe. Oh, seriously.

[00:17:44]Yes, we got laundry in the washing machine. So, there's been a lot of big changes. There's been a little a little regress with the weed and not keeping track of my prescriptions, plus getting dicked over by the doctor, Walgreens, the other Walgreens, the insurance company. Confusion.

[00:18:06]It's like they just tell me so many different things. It's like this should be more coherent of like what happened cuz you're telling me a bunch of things happened. You said I picked up my prescription on the 5th of this month.

[00:18:20]Then that changed to the 22nd of last month, which is more realistic. And then they're going, "Oh, it was three. It was three months." No, it wasn't. Bitch, what are you talking bitch?

[00:18:34]So, guess I'll wear the goofy goofy glasses.

[00:18:51]All right. Whatever.

[00:18:54]Oh, wait. Maybe they're in this.

[00:18:58]Oh, yeah. Relapse on candy. Eating literal candy.

[00:19:04]Right. We need to stay in shape for the trip.

[00:19:08]Okay.

[00:19:10]All right.

[00:19:14]You need a gimbal. I need a lot of things, motherfucker.

[00:19:19]But for the trip specifically, battery charger, portable charger pack. Hey YouTube, can you fix the fucking audio?

[00:19:28]It sounds bad for everyone with an iPhone. Every single person with an iPhone. If they could work on that for a trip, that would be great.

[00:19:42]Okay, I just realized I forgot to take a different medication.

[00:19:50]I'm so sick of being on a like annoying concoction of things that I don't even know if they do anything except make me sick when I don't have them.

[00:20:00]All right, at least I've got methadone.

[00:20:04]Got things in Is is this enough for the trip?

[00:20:12]Please.

[00:20:14]That's not an issue.

[00:20:23]Okay.

[00:20:26]Scissor my black 36.

[00:20:32]A little box for the neck.

[00:20:37]All right, time to go green screen, bitch.

[00:20:44]Sliders. God, it's such a fucking fascinhood.

[00:20:48]I'm telling you, it's you guys got to get in on this personhood shit. It's crazy.

[00:20:59]When do you leave? Uh, the 29th.

[00:21:02]Did I do this? Okay, whatever. Here you can read the same color.

[00:21:11]Cigarettes though for real cigarettes. Wallet picked up.

[00:21:28]The thing is though, I did pick up my prescription last month from there. But they said I just gotten it on the 5th of this month. That is a like three-w weekek discrepancy. Three fucking week discrepancy.

[00:21:44]They're just saying anything. It's like why are you guys so fucking willy-nilly like this is god damn I hate gosh. If you are mentally and physically well people, hallelujah. That's good. And honestly, I'm, you know, hallelujah.

[00:21:59]Somewhat physically and mentally well, but just being on this many medications.

[00:22:05]So annoying.

[00:22:14]And yes, I got the I did get my clear screen.

[00:22:22]Thank god I had to go to New Shiva to get it after one more spin. So, it starts off my doctor doesn't call in the script. My doctor calls in the script, but then they say it's already been filled like on the 5th at another location, which was not true. It was filled on the 22nd at another location.

[00:22:39]Those are very different dates. Okay.

[00:22:44]And then they're like, "Well, we can't fill it to Friday." So, I'm like, "Hey, I guess I'm going to suffer." And then I called today and they were like, "Um, yeah, so you did get three months worth on this day." And I was like, "What?

[00:22:58]No." But now that we're switching up all the days, there was a day about a month ago about a day a month ago where I picked up my sheets.

[00:23:14]But yeah, I finally got them.

[00:23:17]It's not fun because I had already been like super anxious and then smoking weed which has been making my anxiety worse and then to run out of gabapentin.

[00:23:30]Not a fun feeling.

[00:23:33]So I was just for the last like 48 hours just suffing suffing.

[00:23:44]But it gets some good some good reading in good reading reentering refocus.

[00:23:56]And I'm thinking for celebrity Sunday this week of maybe just doing like a a Rudel special like um see if the ladies around. I think I have to check the messages about that.

[00:24:15]I quit all my meds cold turkey. Best decision I ever made. Yeah, I uh right down to one.

[00:24:41]Also, check it. Look who got teeth. I don't know if anyone can see this right now, but finally the government pulled through. Not Keemstar, not Boogie2980, and not Brantley with those those doll clothes. No, no, no. It was the government, motherfucker. Put some teeth on a bitch. Put some teeth on a bitch.

[00:25:07]It looks a lot She looks a lot better. I guess it's like uh they were like she get like in and out.

[00:25:16]That's crazy though being like in your early 20s losing all your teeth like that. I'm lucky I didn't have those issues.

[00:25:26]>> Hey, what's up Nikki? The real cost of these medications to insurance off the charts. Yeah. And it's all it's all corrupt as fuck. And like it just sucks, dude. It just sucks being dependent on these things like trying to get off of it and then whatever.

[00:25:48]It's whatever. There's worse worst problems to have in the world.

[00:25:53]I uh I don't know. I feel better now.

[00:26:00]Sweet tea has teeth again. Yep. What's up, M? How's it going? Doesn't she look good?

[00:26:06]I know Keemstar and Brenley also wanted to have a threesome with her, which they also lied about and smeared her and insulted her. Sounds familiar, but do we see it now, people? Do we see it? I think the three-way is back on, motherfucker.

[00:26:23]When I went cold turkey, I was sick for almost two months. Yeah, that's the thing is people don't get like this isn't just like oh a rough week and then everybody it's like months and months of no sleep and psychological torture and like I just get scared since I've lost my mind completely like that one you know that one time where I was 51 53 times in a week.

[00:26:47]So just knowing that that can happen scares me, you know? So I get like extra panicked when I'm out of a medicine because I don't know what the fuck is going to happen, you know? It just sucks so bad.

[00:26:59]But we got it step by step. Just keep working with the doctors and all theies and what the fuck.

[00:27:15]This is a It's a beautiful day.

[00:27:20]Feels so much better. It felt like honestly it felt like kind of like a Xanax withdrawal or something cuz it's the way that gabopentin works is on your GABA receptors.

[00:27:30]Um and it can be used as like a seizure medication as well and for neuropathic pain. So when you subtract that all the pain and anxiety spikes up more than what it's even treating. It spikes up so tired of doing this to myself. Like just years of on and off medications and withdrawals, side effects, and nonfunctioning and functioning, but I feel like I get to a point where I just can't communicate. It's like my brain can't access words anymore.

[00:28:10]like and I can't explain what I'm going through as I'm going through it. It's very frustrating.

[00:28:20]Sweet teeth. Yes. Look at that smile.

[00:28:23]She looks so different. I mean, yeah, it's like obviously she got teeth, but like that really does affect like your your visual. I think my visual improved when I got my wisdom teeth out.

[00:28:34]I don't know if that works out for clvicular though, the nose job and his wisdom teeth out. He looks crazy.

[00:28:40]Like these would be positive tweaks if he was trying to look like an Instagram female model, but I don't know. All these looks masters are probably files at the end of the day, so whatever. God bless him.

[00:28:59]>> Do you remember the thoughts that make you take drugs in the first place? The rational. I mean, the rational is like I'm in a state of like extreme anxiety, terror, despair.

[00:29:12]Um, and it's like being drowned or set on fire, and people are like, "No, no, no. Just keep holding your breath, and then in a couple weeks you'll feel better." And you're like, "Dude, I am suffering. Like, I get it. Oh, if I hold my breath, wow." like it's it's usually just like I cannot tolerate the amount of like you know whether it's physical or psychological pain or whatever the issue is but it's usually that or it's like the mindset of like oh I feel good do you know what would make me feel better or uh oh I've been so good like my tolerance is now yeha or you're just saying fuck But I mean it's like I haven't the only weed like yeah I smoked weed is that I haven't had any impulse to do like hard drugs in a very long time but occasional weed and alcohol and the weed getting the stupid pen I just ended up like it's just too easy to do it like all the time and I'm used to being able to like smoke weed and then like function go to work and do what I need to do. But since my tolerance is down and I'm like I like I'm just literally not keeping up with things. And anyway, we goodbye people.

[00:30:39]I predict Clap will go trans. I mean, I wouldn't be surprised. It's like you look at someone like that, it's like what even is like their their sexual orientation is just towards power and attention. I don't even think it has to do with women at the end of the day, you know? It's more about impressing and mogging other men, I think, is what it comes down to.

[00:31:10]Like the the women are just a vehicle to acquire power, status, whatever.

[00:31:16]Everyone struggles with lust to some degree. Lust for power, lust for sex, lust for drugs, lust for pleasure, lust for sloth.

[00:31:36]I may have moved my Friday show to Friday 3rd of July to let things come down.

[00:31:42]I'm so sorry that happened. Yeah, I'm not very happy with Jeremy at all right now. This is why people aren't going to collab with him. And he's saying he wants this is to be like his his career, homie.

[00:31:54]You You're not going to make a career by saying the nword and doxing random people.

[00:32:02]even like I just don't and the drinking is crazy. It's had such an obvious like instant detrimental impact.

[00:32:14]It's like he started drinking and has been drunk since then. Just saying that nword, crying and being mean to random people. It's self-sabotage. He's a He's a child.

[00:32:26]Child to child. I get it. I'm doing the same thing with weed. I just am better at it. Like I'm just better at being a drug addict than Jeremy. So, just want to put that on there.

[00:32:35]Where are we going?

[00:32:37]We are going to the store so I can get some hair dye uh and some makeup and maybe there's this nails placed nearby. Let me see what they're see if they have any openings.

[00:32:52]But my phone's it's on 23% so I don't know if I'd even be able to like stream the whole nail thing.

[00:33:03]Happy Pride Month, trans queen. Thank you.

[00:33:12]I was thinking maybe getting my my eyelashes done, too. But that's kind of risky. I've never done that uh to like new I don't know. Like what if it gets like infected or something? I don't want to do anything that could compromise the trip.

[00:33:28]Oh, look at this little fun little bar place to go to. I'll have to check it out sometimes.

[00:33:33]Here, here's the nail spa.

[00:33:36]All right, let me go to the pharmacy first and then we'll go to the nail place.

[00:33:44]But yeah, I think I'm just doing I don't know. Should I do like full-blown acrylics or what? People Hey, how are you?

[00:33:57]I'm just uh about out getting some hair dye, touch up the grays, and uh maybe get my nails done for my little California trip. I hope you're having a lovely week. Should give estim um cars, do you care if I just run into the road? I'm so sorry. Shit, I'm crazy.

[00:34:19]Sorry.

[00:34:21]All right, back to the scene of the freakout of Wednesday. Whatever the fuck that was.

[00:34:28]Oh, there's another little boy that's empty.

[00:34:39]Callie, a purse, of course.

[00:34:46]But yeah, I had like a medication fiasco. So, I've just been trying to recoup, but I got that sorted out this morning after being out of my gavin for a few days. Just sucks. It's like never the other meds they run out.

[00:34:58]It's always the ones that have like the absolute worst withdrawal symptoms. And then it's just like, okay, cool. So, I'm just going to be like in a state of psychological, physical suffering and terror until further notice. Okay, sounds good, Doc.

[00:35:14]But that's that's life, baby. It's life.

[00:35:20]These are just everyday annoying frustrations um that I like to vent about. This makes me feel better.

[00:35:37]>> All right. What are we getting to?

[00:35:44]I was onent for shingles around 10 years ago. Worked for singles, but I didn't like it. So once shingles was gone, I stopped taking it later. I heard how addictive it was. Yeah, I've been on it for a while for they give it to a lot of people um in like rehab and stuff to help with uh postacute withdrawal syndrome and it helps with like tapering down off methadone, but it has its own fucking annoying shit like and there's always some issue feeling it like just this craziness.

[00:36:14]I googled it says it's for ner pain.

[00:36:16]Yeah, they use it for all kinds of stuff.

[00:36:20]It hurts just not having a cold turkey.

[00:36:29]All right.

[00:36:34]>> I need mascaras. I'm not going to scare you.

[00:36:42]And the only makeup is broken now. It's crazy.

[00:36:49]L angels pregame. Let's fucking go.

[00:36:54]Yeah, it's used off label for anxiety and insomnia. Oh yeah, dude. On Wednesday night, I didn't sleep awake. I was just literally hitting my legs like this. Like I could do nothing but go up and down the stairs hitting my fucking legs cuz I was like bursting with the restless leg syndrome. is unfucking bearable.

[00:37:17]Literally just like slapping myself all over like all night.

[00:37:23]It's fine. It's good experience. All right.

[00:37:28]I think this is what I use.

[00:37:32]Should I do waterproof now? I guess the fuck too many.

[00:37:38]Is this the color black? Black is black.

[00:37:41]Very black.

[00:37:43]Black is black.

[00:37:46]All right, Ruby and Truth is shining so bright.

[00:37:58]Who are the law causing married?

[00:38:02]Yes, get ready tomorrow 9:00 a.m. I'm medicated. We're back on track.

[00:38:08]And then celebrity Sunday potentially doing a Rudik special. Rudol being the trip name thing we decided on. That's catchy.

[00:38:21]>> Very particular about the kind of lipstick I got. Has to be like something that stays on through anything cuz I'm a messy bitch.

[00:38:29]I'm a messy bitch.

[00:38:35]Here I go again.

[00:38:46]I missed you.

[00:38:53]>> You like like liquid lipstick.

[00:39:05]Rita, that sounds cool. Yeah, I think that's catchy. I'm gonna have to That one look. I'm just gonna go back.

[00:39:16]>> Where's Wet and Wild? Like Wet N Wild, too. Let's do some stuff.

[00:39:20]All right. Now, I need lashes. Oh, are you kidding?

[00:39:32]Can I get it, chat? Come on. I need a $27 heatable toy.

[00:39:40]It's a It's a hamster. Oh, thank you, Humanology. I think they gifted. Look at this one's a bunny. I had one of these, but I can't.

[00:39:50]I am autistic like actually or something.

[00:39:55]This one's Woohoo. Yay. No unfinished business as a member official.

[00:40:06]All right, I have sunblock. Oh, makeup continues right here. Thought that was like not that much.

[00:40:14]Oh, I need a setting powder cuz mine is broken.

[00:40:18]Whatever. Whatever.

[00:40:21]Oh, and foundation cuz mine is broken.

[00:40:25]This is the foundation I use is this like $5 one. It's actually really good.

[00:40:29]Um, I like the the matte one is a little too matte. So, we're going to do more dewy dewy decimal kind of vibe, baby.

[00:40:42]Porcelain. Dude, this is already too hard.

[00:40:46]Oh my god.

[00:40:49]Um, dude, how fucking color I am. This is the one I get and I like mix it with another one.

[00:40:58]But yeah, soft ivory. All right, mascara. That's I need lipstick.

[00:41:10]My highlighter is broken, too. I just It's It's all going to end up broken anyway. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's I'm good. Oh, wait. No, we bought the uh >> Oh, you know, thank you. Very generous.

[00:41:27]Yeah. What else do we need?

[00:41:32]>> Like wipes for the trip? No.

[00:41:36]>> You want a kit?

[00:41:38]>> Where is that? Good. Good. Here we go.

[00:41:44]Is this the right color?

[00:41:47]This stuff will stay like forever, but it's not as good. And certain colors aren't like as good as others.

[00:41:54]Good.

[00:41:56]Probably cheap, too.

[00:41:58]I think that's the one.

[00:42:02]Yes. Pocket.

[00:42:04]That's good. I'll be making it rain gifted.

[00:42:08]Yes. So, I'm picking up some the main thing is hair dye, makeup, and then potentially getting my nails done across the street. See if they have any walkins available. If not, maybe I'll do that tomorrow.

[00:42:22]Um, I guess this is Thank you so much. Let's go. Jeremy should be in jail. Uh oh. Gamer's here after Jeremy.

[00:42:39]Dude, he needs to stop.

[00:42:42]Also, it's so fucked up to be like, "You ducked yourself." No, he you Jeremy saw accidentally stumbled upon Gamer's username or his actual name and then just started like blasting it everywhere. That's you doxing him. You didn't have to say his shit publicly. It's fucked up, dude. I don't know why it has to be like that.

[00:43:04]Like he's just a literal child. He's a child. Not gamer, but um Jeremy like he's a self-destructive child and that's why he's going to die in a car. Like it's unfortunate. You know, we had some hope, but it's running low.

[00:43:22]All right.

[00:43:25]Look at some I think this is huge.

[00:43:35]Big lash. Big big lashes. These are huge. Let's go.

[00:43:45]He's 36. Yeah. And I'm an immature person. I struggle. I'm very whatever.

[00:43:50]Not going to act like it's not the thing. But just being so hostile to people for no reason and doxing people and like needing to tell everyone the nword then being like, "You can't tell me what to do. You told me not to do it.

[00:44:02]So, I'm going to do it times 10. It's like, okay, dude. Like, why are we doxing gamer again? Why are we just doxing like one of the few people who actually called into your shows and was like carrying your shows? That's who we're going to go after. Okay.

[00:44:22]All those kinds of nails, they will not stay on for like a day. So, let's get the real deal.

[00:44:30]die.

[00:44:34]Nope. Don't need a $26 heated stuffed animal right now. Even though I'm autistic.

[00:44:39]Should get a prescription for that hair stuff.

[00:44:45]Here we go.

[00:44:50]So, I have to be somewhat in the the range that I am, but I'm thinking of going just for Auburn again. Maybe a little lighter than I did last time.

[00:45:02]You know, it' be fun to be blonde for California.

[00:45:05]But no, my hair will die. I need I can't damage it like that.

[00:45:09]I'm going to go like like this. I don't know how the fuck this will turn out, but there's a little lightning.

[00:45:19]I've heard them die dark so many times though. I don't know.

[00:45:24]Gamer's too nice to J. Yeah. It's like this is why Drew was like, "Oh, I'm going to exodus." Wait, no, you're not.

[00:45:31]Not like like anytime you get any molecule of success or people watching, you instantly set it on fire or like any like you It's I just It's honestly mind-blowingly stupid and just cruel for no reason.

[00:45:47]It's like, how do you call yourself a Christian man when you're so fucking hostile to people for no reason?

[00:45:53]Jesus said to love your neighbor as yourself, not to dox your fucking neighbor and say the n-word. Okay, Jeremy.

[00:46:10]I might try this.

[00:46:13]It's definitely not going to come out this color.

[00:46:17]Where's my phone?

[00:46:20]>> What is that smile face? Sometimes they AI or like Photoshop the face so much it just starts looking like what are we doing?

[00:46:39]Wish I could do like a fun crazy color, but I just know it's not going to come out. So, this is So, this lightens a bit. I don't know what the chemical makeup is cuz I can't really handle any bleach, but I don't think there's any bleach in here.

[00:46:56]Let me All right, let's go for it.

[00:47:00]Right.

[00:47:02]Hi. What's up, po viewers hate watch Jeremy waiting for the big crash out.

[00:47:07]Not all of them though. He does have like some people around who just enjoy like he streams a lot. He shares his life, his little high jinks or whatever, the wildlife stuff and like then there's yes, the crash outs, the freakouts, but it's just like you do that enough times your channel's just deleted. Bye.

[00:47:25]And then doxing anyone who would be interacting with you, running them off the fucking internet for literally no reason. What did Gamer do to you except carry your show for you?

[00:47:37]It's like, cool. Well, now you're back to being a lone bird.

[00:47:42]I just need to get it.

[00:47:44]All right. Hair dye, lashes.

[00:47:47]I have lash glue.

[00:47:50]I'm going to get like a headband.

[00:47:55]No, I never enter that photo.

[00:48:04]Okay. I don't have any food. Who gives a fuck?

[00:48:11]It's like these are different Walgreens.

[00:48:12]I don't know where anything is.

[00:48:14]Everything is just different, chat.

[00:48:15]Everything's different. It's harder.

[00:48:20]Oh my god. I need a journal cuz I can't find my journal.

[00:48:28]This is cute.

[00:48:30]California diar.

[00:48:35]We are six days away from my big trip. I have a little diary like that that people ran in.

[00:48:45]This $4.99. Are you joking?

[00:48:51]Dude, these are all expensive.

[00:48:57]This is funny.

[00:49:01]My California diary.

[00:49:05]stupid. 29 cents though.

[00:49:11]Maybe we can each have a little California tire. Five bucks for a book.

[00:49:16]I have a journal though. I have a couple journals with my crazy. Oh, I need a fan for real. But do I want to get a fan here?

[00:49:27]I don't have a fan upstairs. There's so many things I need. Can't be a person. I opt out. people.

[00:49:45]>> Oh, I should get presents for the ladies, too. Sneaks.

[00:49:57]>> What else would a person need? I have that coke. There's that fucking pharmacy.

[00:50:04]Oh my >> guess I got another energy drink.

[00:50:09]Emo my scout gamer hosted that channel with Jeremy.

[00:50:16]Yeah, he's done like said nothing but me nicely and he has to sabotage it. That's cuz like Jeremy's clueless and doesn't have any care for anyone else around him but himself. And if he gets called out for it, he's like, "Well, you do yourself by letting me know your name."

[00:50:28]Is that how that works? Is that how that works now?

[00:50:31]Like it was so retarded, dude. This is why we can't. This is why boy and everyone in it is doomed to fail and be at the bottom forever. It's just too much mental illness to break out.

[00:50:48]Too many decisions.

[00:51:11]I don't know what to eat.

[00:51:18]be very much worse creature you are.

[00:51:22]So, do you simp like energy drinks?

[00:51:26]Sam, recently I just don't like it.

[00:51:29]Leave it. Why can't you get back to track?

[00:51:35]Get back to track. We're trying to get back on track, baby. All right. Getting stuff for my little trip.

[00:51:44]But um yeah, I don't know what track you want to be on.

[00:51:50]Jeremy's an expert permanently burning bridges. Yeah. And that's why people like the Force and Jeremy are stuck with each other. They're like the people who no one else will collaborate with. They have no choice but to just keep interacting with each other and then act like it's a choice that he's been an insult for years. Like I made a promise, God.

[00:52:10]I made a promise to God that I would be a good boy. What are we talking about?

[00:52:14]You're not a good boy.

[00:52:17]You broke your promise to God.

[00:52:21]Get the fuck out of your toys.

[00:52:32]It's just my luggage for the trip.

[00:52:36]Get a little for the girls. Party game.

[00:52:45]$10.

[00:52:50]Dump the dudes for a night. Gather the girls for a wild ride.

[00:52:58]>> Don't need to spend $10 on this.

[00:53:07]Very cute.

[00:53:18]But it's like I was considering like there's people who are like, "Oh, maybe you know, maybe in a public setting, meet up with Jeremy like and do a collab maybe." But he ruined it by doxing everyone, yelling the N-word all over the place, trying to move away from that stuff.

[00:53:36]All right, I have flip-flops. I don't know where the fuck they are. I don't know where anything is cuz I moved and it was It's just need to get out of the store though.

[00:53:53]Get me the fuck out of here.

[00:54:06]All right. So, I need to get portable charger. Maybe they have that here.

[00:54:11]>> No, I should go to like a Walmart or something like that.

[00:54:22]>> Hi, >> how are you?

[00:54:24]>> Yeah, just a little bag.

[00:54:26]>> Uh, yes, please. Thank you.

[00:54:30]>> When someone shows you who they are, believe them. Yeah. The thing is I'm like I'm a fuck up, too. I'm a fairly forgiving person when people mess up, but it's like it's just too many liabilities. I can't and going after like, you know, Gamer who's one of my like online collaborators or friends. It's like seriously that's not going to make anyone want to collab with you.

[00:54:50]Want to put your phone number?

[00:54:51]>> Uh, yes.

[00:55:01]68. Okay.

[00:55:22]What are you?

[00:55:23]>> Um, no, it's okay. Actually, can I get a pack of new 100s, too?

[00:55:26]>> Yes.

[00:55:26]>> I'm so sorry. I realize I need >> No, you're good. I got >> you.

[00:55:31]>> Yes, please. Thank you.

[00:55:33]>> Uh, yeah. Just have your ID.

[00:55:35]>> Uh, yes.

[00:55:37]My ID's expired, though, so I don't know if that. Okay, let's see.

[00:55:43]Oh, yay.

[00:55:45]>> Why I did that freaking >> All right. It's supposed to >> 1531.

[00:55:49]>> Okay.

[00:55:55]>> So honest. I appreciate that.

[00:55:58]>> Well, you want to proceed with that?

[00:56:04]>> Uh, no. That's okay.

[00:56:05]>> You're all set. Great.

[00:56:06]>> Thank you so much. Have a good night.

[00:56:08]Thanks.

[00:56:16]My gosh. I'm sorry. I'm going at the wrong I'm going at the wrong one. So, all right, motherfuckers. All right, we've got hair dye.

[00:56:29]Oh, make sure you get my nails done after I dye my hair this mess up.

[00:56:33]Um, shit. I'm on 13% so whatever.

[00:56:49]Why are you What are you fighting about in chat? I can't keep up.

[00:56:56]So, I got some makeup. I needed energy drink, hair dye, lashes, and a food bar so I don't have to think about food for another few hours or whatever. I fucking what I mean. It's just like the amount of tasks involve upkeep person. I can't be the only one who finds it all just a bit much.

[00:57:17]People, the feeding, the upkeep, the bathroom, the washing, the shower.

[00:57:40]It's at work. Don't worry, we got it.

[00:57:45]I don't s anyone.

[00:57:48]The word simp has become like obsolete.

[00:57:50]Like people call you a s if you're even remotely nice to any female ever. Unless you're also female, in which case you're like exempt. Even though I feel like I'm kind of a s. If you're a beautiful bitch, you can do whatever the fuck you want. You know, you're a beautiful bitch while you do it. What am I going to do?

[00:58:06]You're trying to stop beautiful bitch from doing what she got to do.

[00:58:23]Okay.

[00:58:27]See, we can't have anything nice. I can't even have a background anymore.

[00:58:30]Okay. We're ducks and game. What is going on? People get it together.

[00:58:35]Why are you being so controversial? Like feel like they're always getting there's always like shots fired at them from chat or from whoever. Like it's not a dog. Different cadence.

[00:58:56]I'm just going to finish this cigarette and then see if they can take me for a walk in.

[00:59:03]What color should I get for my nails, chat? I don't know.

[00:59:17]I'm winning.

[00:59:25]The way to win life, people, is just do your best. Live your best life. All right? be happy for others when they win.

[00:59:34]But when people get too into that mindset, it just brings them to a bizarre place.

[00:59:46]Funny how Jeremy calls chatter simps when he desperately tries to meet online people in person. Also, his his claim to fame is literally being Grace's s.

[00:59:56]You know, the the only thing is it's like he has, you know, made his own little his own little crowd so that now even if streaming, there's still people who are going to prefer to watch Jeremy, especially at this point. And if he kept it that consistency, but you know, I guess there's a crowd that likes the drunk crash outs too, but it just gets a lot. Rejoice for those who rejoice more those. Hey Dixie, how's it going?

[01:00:24]Thank you, Flip.

[01:00:28]But yeah, there's a lot of a lot of insane projections happening. Boy, a lot of delusion, a lot of mental illness.

[01:00:39]Yeah, you people are snips.

[01:00:42]Meeting IRL is No, there's nothing wrong wanting to meet people IRL.

[01:00:47]But it's just like Jeremy has a habit of blowing every time. like he meets up with Ava and starts harassing random homeless people and showing like oh wait you're actually like too crazy to interact with us like we're at that getting yourself up I just went to Walgreens and got some hair dye stuff cigarette and I'm going to go into this nail salon and see if I can get my nails And uh yeah, cuz I guess I don't know what day it's next week. Today's the 19th. Yeah, today's Junth, right? The holiday.

[01:01:38]So, happy uh June, Ruby, do you like the American manicure with bright tips? Like a French manicure? I I mean I've never I don't usually get my nails done that much so I don't know if I have like a go-to when I have I have done like the French manicure but I might just do like a basic color cuz I got a French manicure on my for my pedicure and I went out with Miss Haze and it still looks good you know but it's a little like chipped at the ends and I'm like oh maybe I should have gotten like a solid color like get your nails What have you been up to, Vixie? I hope you're doing well.

[01:02:18]My week's been it's been a messy month for me, but you know, I think just moving, getting resituated, getting things set up, moving my 8,000 different medications all over the fucking world that are an issue every month. Like, went to the clinic yesterday, saw my fucking doctor.

[01:02:40]doing what they got to do.

[01:02:49]I just feel bad when I'm like constantly bailing on plans.

[01:03:00]It is what it is. We're doing our best.

[01:03:12]people do. Should I get acrylics? Fuck it.

[01:03:22]Wait, that's so much upkeep, though.

[01:03:39]Hi.

[01:03:41]>> Hi. How are you?

[01:03:43]>> I wanted to Is it possible to walk in for acrylics?

[01:03:47]>> Yeah. Great.

[01:03:49]>> Okay. Thank you.

[01:03:56]I'm supposed to go high off the fumes already.

[01:04:22]Sorry, now my nails are just super chipped. I know that isn't my entire nail bed. When nails get chipped, it just just like that sometimes.

[01:04:34]You're out.

[01:04:40]You can you can ban them. Anyone who does any doxing or anything like that is banned. It's not cool.

[01:04:54]Why is my button not? It's not letting me do it.

[01:05:01]Chad, what color? What colors?

[01:05:17]Just get like a French do like a French set.

[01:05:23]Should I do like a bright color?

[01:05:27]Can't I don't know if this is even working right now.

[01:05:36]>> Oh yeah, I got it.

[01:05:44]chat. Sorry, I got disconnected.

[01:05:49]>> I don't know what color to get there.

[01:05:52]Ruby isn't on their I just connected the Wi-Fi button like pillows like a light blue maybe either light blue or like acrylic.

[01:06:48]Go back to my wedding.

[01:07:05]that almond shape.

[01:07:07]>> Uh yeah, kind of like a square almond >> square >> like or like almondy squares.

[01:07:13]>> Either one.

[01:07:14]>> Yeah, either one, I guess.

[01:07:16]>> Almond.

[01:07:16]>> Okay.

[01:07:28]like medium length.

[01:07:30]>> Uh yeah. Yeah, about medium length.

[01:07:37]>> Oh my god, my daughter.

[01:07:40]>> Just getting it.

[01:07:48]And then when I last >> Should I do a French manicure or do like light?

[01:07:57]>> Oh my god. You don't want to sit down on red?

[01:08:02]>> Yes.

[01:08:03]>> Yeah. I said, "Oh my god, that and then I have another one." I say okay.

[01:08:18]>> Yeah, that's nice.

[01:08:20]But why actually?

[01:08:27]>> Yeah, my son was like that.

[01:08:42]everything.

[01:09:02]Okay.

[01:09:04]It's different.

[01:09:27]>> Go to the store.

[01:09:40]every celebrity center. Yeah, I asked I um I asked if they were around. I think Kel might be working until 8, but I'll see if she's still up for it. I know for me sometimes after work I'm just like cooked.

[01:09:55]>> Thank you.

[01:09:57]>> Is the following weekend? Oh, yeah. Like Oh my god. Actually, yeah, we'll do a special edition for California, too. I can't forgot, dude. It's It's coming up.

[01:10:07]I'm getting like excited. I mean, I've been excited, but I've also been like stressed, worried about logistics, but chat pulled through for the funding. The hotel plane tickets locked down. So, now it's just about beautifying and getting some uh activities planned out.

[01:10:24]But luckily, Kell and Dish are more planning oriented than me. But a lot of streaming you can't, you know, there's only so much you can plan for. just about being out in the world and having fun and interacting with people and doing things and just hoping the connection booster >> do Rudol Sunday special during the curls.

[01:11:09]>> A little >> Yeah, that's good. That's always good.

[01:11:21]>> I think I think the baby has light on your French manicure.

[01:12:07]>> Yeah.

[01:12:10]My mother didn't It does suit like it reminds me of my dust off.

[01:13:18]like back there.

[01:13:26]>> I don't know.

[01:13:29]You look good.

[01:13:30]>> Yeah. Yeah, that's cute.

[01:13:40]One more.

[01:14:03]>> Yes.

[01:14:18]Sit down.

[01:14:24]>> Anywhere you like.

[01:14:39]Let's see now.

[01:15:18]Bloody quick.

[01:15:46]You can get black too.

[01:16:01]>> Yeah.

[01:16:14]Can't wait. Show you the color, but it's kind of like a raw edge. I think maybe I don't know.

[01:16:44]You're like, "Oh, Must be like a light green too.

[01:17:37]Yeah, great.

[01:18:10]glue on the extensions like my process Maybe push the Sunday shows start time a bit later. Are we waiting for True? Yeah, I'll have to I'm going to check our messages after this to see what the deal is.

[01:18:47]I've cut nails.

[01:19:27]I don't know.

[01:19:44]color so far. Uh, I think I'm going to do like a light blue maybe.

[01:19:56]>> Yeah, that's good. Thank you. Thank you.

[01:20:25]Okay, everybody. Okay.

[01:20:36]I'm going to do light blue. Yeah, I think I'm good.

[01:21:00]I'm sorry.

[01:21:19]My phone's gonna I'm end to end the stream. But um I'll let you guys see when I get back home.